I am still having a hard time figuring out my schedule during the week to get 4 short runs in. Instead I have at least managed to get 3 short runs in, but I have made them longer to get the mileage up to where I feel a comfortable base is being created. We have a schedule conflict on Wednesdays, so no one gets home until after dark. I won't run our lonely unlit roads in the dark. I feel unsafe on them during the day with the crazy driver's and logging truck traffic. Night running is definately out. I wish I could afford a treadmill or gym membership.
Today's long run included a pretty big wipe out by your's truly. We were turned around heading back in and I lost the sense of my left leg. This is something that has been happening since the Lupus invaded my body. I just lose all sensation of my left leg or my right arm. I can see it, but my brain isn't registering that limb. Today I dropped pretty hard to the ground and not only did I fall, but I tumbled a couple times as well. It makes me feel completely incapable of doing anything at all. The emotional impact of losing control is worse than the actual loss of control. I feel like an idiot. I hate that my body does this. My knee is pretty messed up and my leg is bruised from the shin to the ankle and the skin torn off in a couple of places. I am stiff. I am mad. I hate this. I will not stop running. I can't. Running saved me from myself and there is no way I am going to stop.
Running gave me something that I needed in my life. It gives me that time to process all that my day entails, from fighting for my child's developmental and medical needs, to wondering each day if I am going to continue to hold down employment in the mortgage lending industry. I think I would be insane if I didn't have that outlet.
So, I broke out the big bad pain pill, will ice and heat the knee and see how I am feeling tomorrow.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
update time
I got reminded that I haven't updated in a while. I am really remiss about posting here. My life is a bit crazy. Then again isn't everyones?
I am trying to keep this blog focused on my training and not so much my personal life. It isn't always easy as everything is very interwoven.
My family is so great about working with my running schedule. Although I am finding it hard to squeeze in my short runs. I don't take lunch at work - I take it the last half hour of my schedule so I can be home on time to meet my son's bus. With the daylight hours shrinking it is getting to be tricky to get the run in before dark.
Last week I had a crappy cold that has been going around. I ran only 1 short run and then the long run. Was I ever stiff and sore the next day. This week I am making sure the long runs are in as they should be. I am finding that I can run longer stretches than I have ever been able to. I know it is a mental thing. I am sure the first time I trained I could have pushed and run longer stretches, but I didn't. I just kind of made sure I kept injury free and healthy enough to cross that finish line. This time I find that running is easier than walking. Granted many people walk faster than I run, but that movement is friendlier to my body than walking.
The weather this month has been ideal. I am not looking forward to the rain that I know is going to be here soon enough.
Fundaising is going pretty well. I lost my corporate sponsor, which was a disappointment. But with the economy as it is, they are feeling the pinch more than most, so I completely understand. I have another group of letters going out and we have the Texas Hold Em Party that needs to be finalized.
I am trying to keep this blog focused on my training and not so much my personal life. It isn't always easy as everything is very interwoven.
My family is so great about working with my running schedule. Although I am finding it hard to squeeze in my short runs. I don't take lunch at work - I take it the last half hour of my schedule so I can be home on time to meet my son's bus. With the daylight hours shrinking it is getting to be tricky to get the run in before dark.
Last week I had a crappy cold that has been going around. I ran only 1 short run and then the long run. Was I ever stiff and sore the next day. This week I am making sure the long runs are in as they should be. I am finding that I can run longer stretches than I have ever been able to. I know it is a mental thing. I am sure the first time I trained I could have pushed and run longer stretches, but I didn't. I just kind of made sure I kept injury free and healthy enough to cross that finish line. This time I find that running is easier than walking. Granted many people walk faster than I run, but that movement is friendlier to my body than walking.
The weather this month has been ideal. I am not looking forward to the rain that I know is going to be here soon enough.
Fundaising is going pretty well. I lost my corporate sponsor, which was a disappointment. But with the economy as it is, they are feeling the pinch more than most, so I completely understand. I have another group of letters going out and we have the Texas Hold Em Party that needs to be finalized.
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